This day, there was nothing I needed more than the Mercy and Forgiveness of Allah. I had a lot going on. At the same time, my heart had been so overwhelmed with the realization of how vast and all encompassing Allah’s Mercy is. The more I time I was spending reflecting on His book, the dots that were connecting for me were the magnitude of His Mercy and how Oft-Forgiving He ﷻ is.

So today with all I had going on, it became more apparent to me how much in need I was of said Mercy and Forgiveness. I was on the train with my eyes filled with tears, trying so hard not to draw attention to myself and repeating quietly under my breadth, Ya Rahman have mercy on me, Ya Rabb I’m in desperate need of Your Mercy. O Allah You’re the Most Forgving, You love to forgive so forgive me. The entire 1 hour train ride.

In between, I kept thinking of a few ayahs from Juz 24 and 25 from Surahs Ghafir (40: The Forgiver): ayahs 3, 7-9 and Ash-Shura (42:The Consultation): 4-5, 12 and 19. In ayah 3 of Ghafir, sandwiched between the reminder of the severity of Allah’s punishment is the fact that He’s The Forgiver and Accepter of Repentance and Infinite in Bounty. I also couldn’t help but marvel and be overwhelmed by the fact that the angels make du’a for us, seeking His Mercy and Forgiveness for us, asking for Jannah for us, our parents, spouses and descendants and then again in As-Shura 4-5 subhanAllah. And then ayahs 12 and 19 reminds us how Kind Allah always is to us and how Abundantly He continues to provide, exalted is He ﷻ.

Ya Rahman, Ya Ghafir, do not ever deprive me of Your Mercy and Your Forgiveness. Ya Latif, I am forever in need of Your Kindness and Gentleness. Do not ever withhold from me Ya Allah and always make me among the most grateful servants to You. Amin

With love, Ibtisam